More servicesWindows Live
HomeHotmailSpacesOneCare
 
MSN
Sign in
 
 
Spaces home  纽约的游牧者PhotosProfileFriendsMore Tools Explore the Spaces community

纽约的游牧者

像蔓草一样生长
September 05

Programming of the next generation

Ubiquity is absolutely a stunning tool that will potentially reform the programming.

Programming has been developing for a long long time. In early years, programming was generally local/compiling; gradually local/scripting language got more and more popular due to simplicity and gradual learning curve. Internet programming at this stage was quite limited to certain applications, such as online games and trading systems, and could not be easily adapted to certain contents.

Web programming boomed when internet application prevailed. At first (network/server side programming, like CGI/PHP/ASP etc.) was predominant, which featured high flexibility and highly adaptable to new contents and needs. However even with the some (network/client-side programming, like Javascript), the user could barely customize an application. The application providers were responsible for all jobs from content assembly to format and design.

RSS somehow changed the horizon of the web. RSS changed web maker from all-in-one provider to content-only supplier. However, the user-side customization was still limited since the look and feel of RSS finally depends on the readers, which were not easily customizable.

Finally, there came the Browser Automation script. An early ancestor was grease monkey script that exploit the great API functionality of Firefox. This essentially change Firefox from just a browser to a container where many script could run inside and rearrange and manipulate the web pages users finally see.

Grease monkey is not sufficient since it still need lots of effort understanding the inside of Firefox. Ubiquity broke this. Ubiquity takes all efforts to simplify the control of browser. With it, an ordinary user would manipulate the content and behavior of Firefox. The Firefox right now looks more like an OS rather than just an application.

Ubiquity implied that in future, the web browser will just be a second layer of OS running on the traditional OS. All programs will be run in a browser, and there will be some scripting language as simple as ubiquity that could easily run the browser at its command. Stemming form a browser automation language, browser based programming will be probably be another focus of daily computer tasks.
September 02

Acadia Hiking归来/Google出浏览器了

Acadia Hiking归来。晒了一下,去掉与日俱增的小白脸的恶趣味……

划3mile的kayak+7.5miles的hiking,总体来说是伪hiking,虽然野,但是标记很清楚。里面还有速降,60度的坡度,需要攀爬,比较过瘾。中途遇上一块500米见方的黑云下了一场半分钟的豪雨,扯着牛逼雨布,穿着牛逼防雨衣,在悬崖边上躲过。

体能没有因为程序男的生活大退步,没有任何肌肉酸痛。下次可能会考虑更长的hiking路线。

多谢大平司机来回1500公里的铁人行车。多谢大平记者用相机全程伺候。多谢大平的速干防雨防晒衣,高度方向气压手表……等牛逼道具。

龙虾都要吃吐了。这动物心无杂念地长了这么多肉,并且脑子这么多水,活该被吃……

牛上肋(prime rib)也要吃吐了。两个巴掌大一寸厚,这才叫做肉。

另外Google出浏览器了。今天开始可以下载。我痛恨IE很久很久。Firefox虽然很好,但是大众接受程度还不算高,毕竟大多数开发都是通过开源工作完成的,在兼容性方面比IE还是要差一点。

现在Google要出chrome和微软单挑,真是令人兴奋……浏览器大战有得好看了。我押注Google胜利,呼唤对家。不过初步试用的结果是,chrome很多方面还有兼容性问题。并且在繁忙的时候,有一定几率导致全屏死机。可见Beta版需要改进的地方还有很多。
August 20

最迷失的诗歌里面也有最坚定的信条,转述自王敖。

你要从最基本的词语开始,办法是这样:跟弹吉他的最基本的工夫一样.写诗,真写起来,靠的是词语, 而不是别的什么.需要仔细思考,琢磨每一个基本的词,感觉它的颜色,硬度,质感, 明暗,温度......想想它的历史,你怎样从小学老师那里学到它,后来又怎样接触它,直到你发现这个词对你本人的意义,而不仅仅是对所有人的意义.直到这个词变成你的朋友.这样的话,写出来的东西,不管是否好到什么程度,肯定有自己的特色.然后你就会发现自己擅长的方向.

然后你就可以大胆地走极端,强化风格,独树一帜,然后再重新找到平衡.整个过程,有的诗人很快就做到了,有的诗人要花漫长的时间.我20岁左右,意识到了这个问题,花了一个月时间写了第一本诗集.25岁的时候,花了3个月时间,写了第二本.找到感觉以后, 一切都变得很不一样,感觉会越来越精密.

就像听音符一样, 关心词语,信任语言, 而不是"驾驭"语言, "使用"语言.你对词语越好,它们就对你越好.帮助你重塑自我, 探索精神世界的奥妙.
August 16

转载,文艺女青年使用指南

http://www.douban.com/review/1405862/?from=mb-39477998


   本文是某非典型双鱼B理工直男在阅读本书之后结合自己的情感经历,耗时48小时,耗神超过48小时,精心撰写的前瞻性论文。经授权由我对你的沉默简直能 沉默整个宇宙同学代发。严重声明,本文作者及代发者绝对没有针对每个人或者某个人,请自觉在阅读后24小时之内删除,任何组织和个人不得公开传播或用于商 业用途,本文作者及代发者不承担任何法律及连带责任。钦此...
  
  文艺女青年使用指南
  
  文艺女青年,是最近 经常被提起的一个人群,其热度直逼当年的“小资”风潮。由于最近出版业,电影产业的蓬勃发展,这个群体有着越来越扩大的趋势。很多地方总结文艺女青年的特 征为:文艺腔,花裙子,帆布鞋,豆瓣网,indie音乐等等,窃以为只抓住了表象,而没有作深入本质的分析,下面,为了帮助广大仰慕,喜爱,热爱文艺女青 年的男性同胞有的放矢少走弯路,我们开始讲这门课——文艺女青年使用指南,先讲定义,再说定律,掌握了这些,你就会懂得如何稳准狠地拿下众多文艺女青年。
  
  
  ————————第一课:文艺女青年的定义——————
  首先,我们要对文艺女青年做一个定义,这样才能把我们的研究对象从芸芸众生中分隔出来,做更深入的分析:
  定义:我们一般把受到过比较好的教育的,有相当人生经历的,对于性爱和爱情有着相同并且很大兴趣的,非常关注一种叫:“感觉”的东西,并时常能从恋爱,做爱,以及文学作品,电影,音乐欣赏和创作中找到这种东西的女青年,称为文艺女青年。
   从定义中我们可以看出,文艺女青年首先是知识女青年,她们有着相对大众较好的知识累积,她们不用从事比较繁重的下层劳动,或者比较机械的重复工作,这决 定了她们的思考性,她们决不是呆头呆脑的笨头鹅,但是,她们的思考方式和我们理科生,尤其是理科男性有着本质区别,这点我们在之后的讲解中会提到。
   她们虽然外表可爱,有一些还会娇憨可人,或者是嗲声嗲气,但是她们的本质是绝对不可能是不谙世事的小女孩的。也许单纯的生活是她们所追求的目标,但是她 们的生活和思想状态绝对不能用单纯来形容,这也展现了文艺女青年的矛盾面,其实矛盾也是普遍存在于这类人之中的,她们一般会喜欢用“纠结”这个词来形容, 这个问题在后面的研究中我们也会讨论到。
  文艺女青年是爱情动物,她们中的一部分也是外貌协会成员或者是身体主义者,其实大部分的女青年也是爱 情动物,在这里我主要是为了把这个群体和某些事业型女性和女强人区分开来,那些人是把工作和事业放到前面的。文艺女青年对于爱情和情爱的追求往往是纯粹 的,没有任何附加条件的,这是一种脱离了低级趣味的爱情,虽然高尚,但是对于我们广大男性同胞,是一种更加难以把握的东西。
  最后,我们要认识 到,“感觉”是文艺女青年的本质属性,是她们文艺腔的来源,是她们追求在大众看来标新立异的生活方式的本因。虽然我不能清楚的描述出这种“感觉”,但是我 们可以通过两个对比来说明如何分辨文艺女青年。首先,她们追求的感觉和物质化的拜金女不同,她们所要的感觉是自己的感觉,而非外界的评价或者肯定,拜金女 追求的是物质上的和精神上的虚荣,文艺女青年的追求更多的是自己的自我表现,和一些文艺女青年群体中的认同,这种认同和自我实现比较起来又微乎其微。同样 的通过这点我们也可以分辨真正的文艺女青年和附庸风雅的伪文艺女青年。
  在这里还要补充一点,其实每个人都是多样化的,完全纯粹的文艺女青年是不存在的,但是带有着这种气质的人在生活中还是很常见的,所以我们要活学活用,通过某些女人的外在表现来看穿她们的内心本质属性,以达到无往不利的境界。
  练习题:
  1.请指出下面列出的人物中的文艺女青年,并说明原因:
  贞德,戴安娜,安妮宝贝,胡紫薇,张立宪,张悬,纳兰容若,李清照
  2.请根据定义思考自己身边的人谁是文艺女青年。
  
  
  
  ———第二课:文艺女青年的特征——————
  
  在我们能成功的从人群中辨别出文艺女青年之后,我们还要更进一步的来了解一些她们的表象,来帮助我们在文艺女青年心目中建立起美好的想象,来达到我们不可告人的目的。首先我们来看一看文艺女青年平时的状态,很多人这样来形容她们:
  1.她们不合时宜又紧跟时代;她们使人怜爱又令人望而却步。她们彼此惺惺相惜仿佛又自成一系。
  2.她们怀着爱与恐惧,悲伤与希望,接纳与排斥,理性与感性漫步或狂奔于昼与夜、醒与梦之间的某个真实又神秘、边缘又大众、公开又隐秘的地带。一道迷离而清新的风景线。
  3.她们懂得享受生活,却不懂得如何生活;她们憧憬浪漫伟大的爱情,身边却净是些性伙伴;她们外表所流露出的高傲,源于烂入骨髓的自卑;她们总是沉浸在自己的世界幻想,却又活得比谁都现实。
   根据最近认识的某文艺小盆U的自白,她认为文艺女青年总是认为自己的人生经历一半明媚,一半忧伤,一面念念不忘所谓的昨日忧伤,一面还对未来幸福有憧 憬。这些例子可以清楚的表明她们处于一种深深的自我矛盾之中,而她们的感性思考是不足以带她们走出这种思考的死循环的,因为很多时候她们思考的假设就是虚 无的,不成立的,哪么得出的结果当然没有任何现实意义。她们把这种情绪,或者是“感觉”,叫做“纠结”,并且乐此不疲。
  
  练习题:利用生活中的实例说明文艺女青年的三大特征。
  
  
  
  ———————第三课:文艺女青年三大定律——————————
  文艺女青年第一定律(Artistic Female Youth First Law):一切文艺女青年,总是保持纠结别人或自己纠结的状态,直到有外力迫使她改变她的文艺女青年属性为止。
  
  这个定律可以简写为:纠结者恒纠结。这个定律也可以称为:“纠结定律”
   这个定律说明,纠结是她们的固有属性,所以我们绝对不能妄想去改变她们的纠结状态,就好像你我只能去认识自然规律,而不能去改变自然规律一样。认识到这 个规律之后,我们要做的是,陪她们纠结,让她们更纠结。保持一种舍不得,放不开的距离,会让她们得到那种纠结的状态而文艺起来,或者暧昧之中营造一种“想 要,你就说嘛,你不说我怎么知道你想要呢”的气氛,会达到两人纠结在一起的终极纠结。在这里我还要声明一点,前提是她们要愿意为你而纠结,如果你还没能成 功捕获某文艺女青年的目光,那就洗洗睡吧,这帮女青年可是毁人不倦的。
  很多人会认为这套使纠结者恒纠结的理论很混蛋,但是呢,追姑娘就是要投 其所好,正如你追的姑娘是喜欢成绩好的,你就不能每天拿把吉他去她楼下唱我只在乎你,而要天天带她去自习,顺便自己也得考个班级前几名的。如果你要追的姑 娘是喜欢LV和Gucci的,你费尽心机送她一个一人来高的猩猩那就扯淡了。在这里,文艺女青年们喜欢的就是暧昧的浪漫或者是无奈的深情,所以,我们的战 术是绝对没有任何的道德问题的。想当年李敖大师年轻的时候,写出那首《只爱一点点》。“不爱那么多, 只爱一点点, 别人眉来又眼去,我只偷看你一眼。”其实那时候丫还在牢里蹲着呢,就靠这个搞定了知名文艺女青年胡茵梦。当然我们不用都跟李敖比才华,但是呢,找们要认识 到用这样的手段是可以奏效的就可以了。
  文艺女青年第二定律(Artistic Female Youth Second Law):非lesbian的文艺女青年对于男人的兴趣要远远超出男人的想象,但是好感主要来源于她自己的想象,而非男人本身。
   首先我们要注意到,文艺女青年是对男人有着强烈兴趣的,虽然很多时候她们对男人表现为高傲或者冷淡,那基本是她们自认为小众所决定的,其实她们的文艺表 象是来源于她们对于爱情这种千百年来催生了无数伟大文学作品,近年来催生了无数流行歌曲,无数煽情韩剧,无数网络柔情小文的渴望。除去一小部分喜欢同性的 文艺女青年,可以这样认为,对于男人和男人的爱情的渴望是她们的关键罩门所在。但是,我们男性也不要高兴的太早了,由于第一定律的普遍存在性,她们对于固 定男人的好感判定非常的不确定,呈现经常性的无规律摆动,如果以她们对于某固定男性的感觉为y轴(好感为正,恶感为负),以时间为x轴(由于广义相对论, 时间可以为负,但是我们只考虑时间为正的情况)建立坐标系,我们可以大概的得出,这图像根本不可能有规律可循,比较可能出现的情况是早上三变,晚上四变, 是为朝三暮四。
  认识到这点规律的实际意义是,不要被某些不热情,不奔放的文艺女青年的小众孤芳自赏的外表吓退,其实她们内心是充满对于男人的 需求和向往的,正所谓:“哪个女人不怀春,哪个男人不好色。”当然,她们是不会承认这一点的,她们只会承认的是对于纯粹爱情的向往。我们的处理方法是, yep,Whatever, Just do it!
  文艺女青年第三定律(Artistic Female Youth Third Law):
  文艺是相对的,女青年是绝对的。
   很多人看到这的时候估计会发出这样的感想,这些特点不是一般女青年也会有么?其实是的,文艺只是表象,女青年才是本质。我们所追求的不也是女青年么,我 们也不能抱着维纳斯雕像过一辈子啊。文艺只是一种爱好或者是生活方式,文艺只不过把女青年都具有的敏感,细腻,感性等等特性做了相对放大。所以,文艺女青 年也是女青年,总有一天,她们会转变自己的属性,走向人生的另一个阶段——贤妻良母,或者是勾引小男生的怪阿姨,或者是成熟的事业女性。那时,当她们回首 文艺的岁月,会把之前的一个个悲伤或快乐的感情故事总结为正确(错误)的时间遇到错误(正确)的人,我们男性也不要为自己的失败而懊恼,因为,我们至少在 某个文艺女青年心中的某段鲜为人知的故事里永垂不朽了。
  练习题:利用对三大定律的理解,去追求一个严格意义上的文艺女青年,并撰写详细的实验报告和使用心得。

August 15

引用

在开幕式前,网友们猜测该如何点火。

其中我看到最妙的一种是:谢亚龙把自己全身浇满汽油,亲自跳进大火炬里。
有时候,恶毒是可以被理解的……

July 20

史铁生说

宇宙以其不息的欲望将一个歌舞炼为永恒。这欲望有怎样一个人间的姓名,大可忽略不计
July 17

这歌make sense 謝天笑 - 無

虽然比较流行,但是歌词还是不错。用在当下,差不离。
       
《无》

演唱:谢天笑

没有什么能比内心更辽阔
每一个人都会一闪而过
没有什么能抓住天上的云朵
也没有谁能扑灭欲望之火

无门 无道 无限
无悲 无望 无怨
无怨

没有什么能比内心更辽阔
每一个人都会一闪而过
没有什么能抓住天上的云朵
也没有谁能扑灭欲望之火

无门 无道 无限
无悲 无望 无怨

无天 无地 无间
无你 无我 无言

无言
无言

可以到http://radio.democn.com/上去听,也可以关注下中国现在的摇滚发展成什么样子了。
July 15

仿佛看见青春,抬着棺材鱼贯而出

某女变得还真快……不服不行。让贤,让贤。
July 05

08年毕业典礼的最牛逼一句话

北大生科院院长饶毅在08届毕业生毕业典礼上的致辞:

“我校著名的图书馆管理员说过的很多话我都不赞同,但至少有半句话我是赞同的,那就是‘世界是你们的’。”

July 03

看到一个很生动的比喻

...The company (Microsoft) still has everything to prove online. Watching Microsoft in the company of Google and Facebook is a bit like watching your dad trying to be cool.

原文

June 30

美国航班上即将可以无线上网。

在飞机上上网


带笔记本电脑搭乘美国各航空公司班机的乘客,请注意:你的飞行旅程将从此变得更高效、更愉悦;你也将就此失去逃离数码世界的最后一片净土。

最早从2008年7月份开始,部分美国民用航空公司的航班上将提供无线上网服务。

在能无线上网的航班上,只要携带有Wi-Fi上网功能的笔记本电脑、或有Wi-Fi功能的手机,乘客就能像在家或办公室一样使用各种网络功能,比如浏览网页、收发电子邮件、网聊、下载和上传文档、享受视频和音频等。

http://link.brightcove.com/services/link/bcpid452319854/bctid1616739087





June 13

建立和相信常识

并且怀疑一切,即使能力有限。

2800了。光华的某教授不要激动。


曹凤岐:奥运不是股市分水岭

本报记者 姜艳艳 实习记者 熊 薇

    12月下旬,燕园经济管理学院大楼5层。北京大学金融与证券研究中心主任曹凤岐的书房并不大,恰恰够面对两个记者谈话,他说:“对于2008年的股市我也有4句话,总体而言,明年的股市还是会很不错的!北京奥运会也不是这轮牛市的分水岭。”
牛市格局不会大变
    “2008年的股市总体来讲,牛市格局不会大变。”针对众说纷纭的2008年股市预测,曹凤岐显得信心十足。
    曹凤岐表示,分析中央提出的宏观经济政策,会发现这些都是为了让明年的宏观经济进一步稳定持续地发展。而宏观经济继续走好是股市走好的前提。在明年经济快速平稳发展的背景下,股市的发展不会太差。
指数震荡上升
    消费指数连续攀升,加上美联储三番降息以及央行6次加息影响,2008年宏观经济调控的力度将会增大,2007年从紧的货币政策效果将逐步显现,而这无不 对股市造成影响。曹凤岐分析说:“这些都会对股市产生很大的影响,对于短期投资而言,风险将加大,明年的股市应该是震荡上升的趋势,投资者应该学会波段性 操作。”
    有对于2008年资本市场将因缺乏资金而下降的说法,曹凤岐表示了不同的态度。他说:“我曾经说过一句话‘中国的股市缺少的不是资金,而是信心’。如果明年大家对中国股市有信心,那么股市就不会跌。”
奥运不是分水岭
    有评论家说2008年的奥运会会成为中国经济的转折点,也是中国股市的拐点。
     对此曹凤岐认为:“奥运会对中国经济的拉动作用是毋庸置疑的,但是不可能奥运之前什么都好,奥运过后一下子就不行了。”奥运会在举办前和举办后对经济的影 响从很大程度上由主办国家经济体的大小和发展阶段决定。目前的数据还没能看出即将举办的奥运会对中国整个经济体会有明显的影响,没有发现中国有“后奥运” 投资疲软的可能。主办奥运会更多地是中国经济崛起的结果,而不是经济增长的动力。对于奥运后中国经济的持续发展曹凤岐底气十足地表示:“我个人认为奥运会 不是中国股市的分水岭!”
进入价值投资时代
    价值投资时代是指买股票是以企业的基本面和股票的价值为参考依据,而不是仅仅根据行情来选择股票。
    曹凤岐认为:“价值投资首先是指炒股票要根据股票的价值进行选择,要选优质股蓝筹股。虽然有些优质股像工商银行,它们上涨不是很快很明显,但是优质股和潜 力股总有放光的一天。炒股应该是一种长期投资行为,而不是短期行为。”他还调侃说,如果时时去关注股市行情,心情也随着股市的走势而起伏跌宕,那讲课的讲 不了了,听课的也听不好了。他号召大家要去学巴菲特,15年时间等来了可口可乐天价上涨,看准一只股的价值就放着别去管。

June 09

再论理想主义

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UF8uR6Z6KLc

相当有趣:Jobs生父母抛弃了他,养父母辛辛苦苦送他上大学,他却选择退学,旁听在很多人看来非常没有意思的字体制造,但是他感兴趣。他的理念就是:寻找自己最感兴趣的事情,不要太早做决定。像找老婆一样寻找自己的事业。

然后坚持。

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much

May 31

ccbq处转。此语是高人所说。

“人们所有的悲剧都源自于缺乏安静、独立和耐心。”-- 柏莱斯-帕斯卡
 

April 06

留美PhD防止被抢攻略,抛砖引玉

最近出事情了。老黑专门知道拣软的捏,于是在美国时间漫长,长期处于亚人权状态和亚健康状态,天生好友善不好惹事,没有身份没有钱,出了事情也只有家人来奔丧,也没有有钱老爹出来摆平的中国留美PHD就成为老黑打牙祭的首选。

本人长期混迹于蓝天黑地,众多老黑的乐园泽西城泽西日报广场,走夜路颇多,也有点经验,可以贡献一二。各位批评指教。

1.千万不要理会老黑。万一要理会,记住你听不懂英语,听的懂也听不懂黑人英语。老黑和你说话,说中文,最好会一门南方方言,保证无人能懂。
2.走路前后看,和所有人距离至少50m。抢钱的人也会有心理壁垒要越过去,你不近身,他跑50m来抢你,这种概率比较小。
3.在有摄像头的地方走。城市监控系统还是一个巨大的威慑。
4.不要给讨饭的钱。小心讨饭的只是一个诱饵。
5.晚上不要带包。更不要带用于装逼的众多品牌包。找死。
6.你自己也要保持神秘感。你可以戴墨镜,可以戴老黑帽子(风帽),可以装成是一行的。至少不要让别人一眼看出你是中国PhD。我这个干过若干次,发现行人都离我50m远。要的就是这个效果。
7.如果夜路长,要分段走,安排一条路线,上面有几个小店什么的作为避风港,有情况立刻进。但是注意不要是黑店。凡是门口写有check cashed之类的店最好少进。路线上最好有警察的巡逻车过的路段。
8.万一被逼上死角,你兜里最好不要有钱包,但是要有钱。20美元据说是打劫统一最低价。(ccfly最新update,美元疲软,已经涨到40美元)

祝各位保持革命斗争的本色,和天斗和地斗和黑黑斗,其乐无穷。

PS:一直不太习惯一些人每逢死人就说“一路走好”之类的模板。在我看来,在死人的事情上使用模板,然后两天之后忘干净,那才是最大的冷酷。“亲戚或余悲,他人亦已歌”,最荒诞不过。其实人死了就死了,没有更多的路可以走了。剩下的事情是,活着的人要为活着的人做点什么。所以号召中国留学生们要时刻提防垃圾人,把自己包装得彪悍一点,对得起死掉的。

March 27

口水汇报。防止长草。

两个星期前。我回国。按时吃饭,倒时差。
之后,回美国,按时吃饭,倒时差。
挺忙的。除了有时候精力不支,上课睡觉,其余的都很爽。
暑假可能再次回国。创回国频度最高PHD之记录。
March 05

PS3做成的超级计算机

万万想不到专门为游戏设计的PS3在计算能力方面具有超级计算机的潜能。

由于PS3除了一个性能平平的主CPU之外,还有6个专门用于矢量计算的运算单元(叫做SPU不叫CPU),可以同时处理大量的并行数据。而且PS3用的是IBM powerPC的结构(也就是原来苹果笔记本的CPU),可以运行所有支持PowerPC系列CPU的linux系统。PS3还有非常好的网络,和USB支持,可以通过网络把很多台PS3联起来用。

麻省大学(UMass,不是MIT,虽然有MIT的人参与)的人把16台PS3联起来用,制成了一台含有7X16个运算单元的超级计算机……号称相当于25个cpu的IBM bluegene超级电脑。

图:

参见link:
http://gravity.phy.umassd.edu/ps3.html



February 23

每天15min的上古4

日式RPG对我越来越没有吸引力了……
还是欧美的好……不受约束,没有爱情的桥段,魔幻但是比日式RPG现实多了。
可以一天玩15分钟,慢慢搞,很有趣且不沉迷。
上古卷轴里面我基本上只走路跑步,从不fast travel,甚至不骑马,加了自然环境插件之后,特效全开,鸟飞虫鸣,山间四时,风景很好,走路并不单调。天黑就找地方睡觉,天亮步行,能走桥就不游水,不探路的时候就走大路。
身为刺客,从来不杀无辜,虽然在探路阶段我调了无敌;到每一个地方打听八卦;经常在山上看日落……我这样似乎太光明,也太平庸了……
大约按照比例换算的话,上古4的地图总面积其实大约是清华的5~10倍。中央王城区域(可以看见王城塔楼的盆地)大约是两个北大那么大。王城中央塔楼大约是博雅塔的2倍高。北部雪山的海拔其实也就百米,高度最多相当于京郊凤凰岭……在这个世界里面简直都没有拯救世界的欲望,觉得总体来讲蛮好的,偶尔有几个oblivion portal还可以调剂下……找个guild好好玩就是了。
请教吸血鬼在什么地方有……我怎么没有碰到……我想先玩bt的……达人指教。


February 19

关于颐和园的几句评论

最近又和人再次说起这个的片子。

首先要强调一点就是,观众没有那么傻。片子无非就是要写一只飞蛾扑火:知道自己的人生必然会被俗世糟蹋掉,于是抢先俗世一步,更坏更快地糟蹋掉自己。这个蛾子逻辑已经相当狗血,数见不鲜——导演不要烘托得太神秘,还扯上一堆政治做虎皮。一个魔术开场音乐很神秘,魔术师打扮得很怪诞,灯光非常昏暗,猛地一下敲锣打鼓,还以为有什么大事情要发生,结果魔术师吐了一口火变了一个鸽子就下去了……如你所知,08年2月份流行一个叫做“脑残”关键词,大约可以用于这种重拿轻放的情形。

不过话说回来,我白天是个算程序的,到晚上看一个自怜自大自曝自爆的装逼女人,也不算很坏。况且这年头装逼意味床戏,院线创收,观众满意,相当的帕累托。遗憾的是,床戏数量三倍于色戒,但是质量只有色戒的三分之一,形式也很有限……可以看出导演太年轻,要加紧潜规则女演员……否则连我这样的程序员看了都不满意……


令我困惑的还有装逼的女二号,我觉得她连装逼都没装明白,以至于她死掉了我才意识到她也是个蛾子不是NPC。说实在的,我真的只看见了抽烟喝酒上床的无业不良少女。其实说白了,装逼没有什么困难,也没有什么特定的时代性。那几个男女放到80年代也好,夏商唐宋也好,其实也都要绝望,也都要胡搞;哪怕放到美国瑞典,也是一样的德性。有些人在任何时代都要用绝望的形式装逼,这 是个和时代无关的话题。因此莫如拍个东晋的古装片,建康太学的一堆门生和当地的名妓吃了五石散之 后,应该绝望得强烈些,胡搞起来也更香艳些……

好的方面,最后那个结局我觉得不错。那女人盼来了自己招思暮想的男人,却扭头走掉,这个至少很酷,而且没有动用秋风落叶这样场景烘托气氛,只是一个收费站,一个破旅馆,把前面大张旗鼓的毛病平衡掉了一点,还有点味道。温柔一刀,自虐虐人。一碗糊了汤的白面吃到最后居然还有两颗豆瓣……我看电影听音乐,对尾声很挑剔,有个好结局可以把前面所有的不好忘光。从这个意义上讲,这是一部好片子。

回忆起来,观众一半是老外。我觉得老外之所以觉得中国光怪陆离,某些影片也责无旁贷。我想起来我看了美国派之后问NYU的本科生,说你们生活得真有激情……他颇为愤愤,说这是一部典型的满足美国本科生性幻想的片子,我们才没有那么爽。一样的道理,放到我忒不爽看过这个片子的外国人觉得中国大学生也是胡搞的一群。现在中国像个样子的大学里,似乎还没有大量涌现共用一个男人的女人们……我也不希望这些白皮男人以后看见中国女人,觉得自己很有机会给这些女人共用……这话扯远了。






February 05

各位看官,恭贺新禧

别的不祝愿了。就是平安而已。
不是强调大家不要闯荡了。人要闯荡,如同狮子要称王一样,谁能挡得住?
仅仅祝愿,哪怕天上下刀子下石头,哪怕周围都是火海酸雨,你也是活得好好的那个。
祝各位新的一年里,身体好,命更硬。
February 01

最近

试图看下郭敬明的大作《梦里花落知多少》。我原来觉得,既然没有老老实实看完,那么一定不能评价什么;现在我老老实实努力看了一章,发现我这辈子都不可能有评论他资格了。

重看了下白银时代——句子比较短。看得很欣快,也很头晕。看到最后很想吐,于是睡觉,做了充满呕吐的,荒诞的,有趣的梦。对于世界的荒谬性,解释是徒劳的,幽默才是正解。说实在的,王小波写文革之类,我们这代已经多少不感冒,但是还是很多人在看,是不是因为我们发现,荒谬的处境是永远不变的。

我在某比较老实的搜索网上看到的统计,最热门的词汇,高到低排:
美女 超女 女人 女性 女生 爱情 情人 激情 同居 婚姻 离婚 青春 网络 名人 写真 男人 男生 日记 高考 调查 人生
没有办法觉得这些词不经典。单独来看,大家都是有文化的,没文化也是有智慧的,没智慧也是有个性的,没个性也不至于要这么赤裸。但是,统计到一起,大家就是一大坨动物,动物得不分彼此,没有个人模样。我一直觉得Human Resource这个词很有创见,因为Human聚集起来就是一种Resource,和煤炭啊,猪肉啊相似,可以论块,论坨,贵重点还可以论斤……

看《美国黑帮》,我崇拜那个帮主。开始用C++写代码,觉得还是C++好;老板不在乎,觉得只要能用就行。同时逐步分批拆除在MSN,Gtalk以及若干地方的假阳光,假深沉头像,以期待更假阳光,假深沉的头像来替代它们。

祝看我blog的人期中考试顺利。

祝各看我blog的男人两周后的中期审核顺利通过,或者开题报告大获成功。